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It was about a year ago when I first learnt about a special blood test - the HBA1c blood test. It is specifically used with regard to diabetes and is generally given to people with diabetes and those who are at risk of slipping into that unhappy category. Apparently the "HB" part of the name has nothing to do with lead pencils. It stands for haemoglobin. The second part of the name "A1c" relates to glucose. The test measures how much glucose is attached to one's red blood cells that of course contain haemoglobin. This vital substance carries oxygen around one's body and high levels of glucose will cause impairment in the process. There is a scoring system. A healthy bloodstream that is not in any immediate danger of slipping into the diabetic zone will have an HBA1c score of  under 42 millimoles per mole. Anyone who records a score of between 42 and 47 is in the pre-diabetic category and those with a score of 48 or over are classed as Type 2 diabetics. ...

 God is giving me through you the will to move forward. You feel my positivity. And all I feel is bitter. It’s the horse tranquilizer size pill they’d give you when you’re sick, and expect you swallow it with ease. Grief and gratitude are so intertwined it’s hard to see where one starts, and the others end. It’s exhausting. The blessing or not depending on how you look at this is how many more medical professionals get to be educated. For all their formal training, and God Bless it, some of the brightest minds in the world need an education. All that to say is I really wish I wasn’t the one to dispense it. Whoever said carousels as a child were fun, never rode them as they got older. Whole different story. Ballgame.  I’m trying to get back into writing my whimsical dreams, but God has other plans yet again. And sometimes it stinks. So if you want whimsy, I don’t know when it will return. I wish I knew. Off to therapy to get my butt handed to me.  God Bless you and keep ...