Summer Evening
Mr Poznán caught me watering the Women Institute’s flower bed at half past seven. I had already checked on the village green beds but all those had been watered by one of the wardens. I was hot and sweaty and I joked that the exercise would burn more fat off me Mr Poznań looked serious and told me not to be so hard on myself , he had already noticed that I’d lost nearly a stone and a half. “ I’ve noticed that You have a habit of dumbing yourself down “ he said kindly “ you don’t have to do that” His smile was disarming and I found myself suddenly a bit emotional. He patted me on the shoulder as a goodbye. “ You need a man friend “ he told me looking at the watering can I have a habit of indulging in self depreciating humour. Of course it’s a defence mechanism…and as I watered the plants I reminded myself of the lesbian comic Hannah Gadsby who once specialised her act at one time with self put downs She described what she felt a...