Just Before Dawn

The band Everything But The Girl captured that awful middle of the night feeling that Things are not well in their gentle song We Walk The Same Line

One verse of the song  resonates with that feeling so well

And I bet you could tell me 
How slowly four follows three
And you're most forlorn
Just before dawn

I have just had a text conversation with a friend who just so happened to be up and I told him that I feel as though everyone else has been invited to a party and I haven’t .

He blamed Facebook 

You never see the mundane on Facebook he said 

I think that’s all you see generally on Facebook .

It’s natural to think that everyone else is doing better than you are, after all, most of us have been conditioned to say that everything’s rosy even when times are shitty and difficult. 

Those that bemoan their lot, to many remain whingers, but modern day sensibilities have thankfully changed just a little so allow for mental illness and psychological pain issues to be seen in a more favourable light.

The truth still remains that everything seems that little bit worse .....just before dawn.....

My friend texted again to remind me my life is centred just about sleep and work and the dying ,just at the moment .....and  I know I’m catching up with him on Saturday in Liverpool for drinks and food and laughs

Balance ......it’s all about balance 

And not letting your imagination run away with itself 

I SAW THIS POEM TODAY AND THOUGHT OF THESE PHOTOS I TOOK IN 2018 OF MAC, MY GRANDDAUGHTER

 My youngest son had just moved to his new house in a new tract.  My other son came over with his kids and he was helping John with the sprinkler system and I was following the kids around.  I was having such fun following Mac with the way her shadow was reflecting on the wall.  In the one pic it looked like it was trying to pull her back to where it was.  Also a few photos of what they look like without their shadows.  This area close to where he moved in this new tract looks out over a training area for rescue operations, helicopters, etc.

In the last photo Jakey had found a cup that was sitting on a counter in his uncle's new house, lol.  Couldn't resist posting it - 

My Shadow
BY ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON

I have a little shadow that goes in and out with me,
And what can be the use of him is more than I can see.
He is very, very like me from the heels up to the head;
And I see him jump before me, when I jump into my bed.

The funniest thing about him is the way he likes to grow—
Not at all like proper children, which is always very slow;
For he sometimes shoots up taller like an india-rubber ball,
And he sometimes gets so little that there's none of him at all.

He hasn't got a notion of how children ought to play,
And can only make a fool of me in every sort of way.
He stays so close beside me, he's a coward you can see;
I'd think shame to stick to nursie as that shadow sticks to me!

One morning, very early, before the sun was up,
I rose and found the shining dew on every buttercup;
But my lazy little shadow, like an arrant sleepy-head,
Had stayed at home behind me and was fast asleep in bed.

Night Shifts

Winnie woke me up around 1 pm
She was bored and was kicking the cushions from the sofa in a fit of pique
I got out of bed and texted Trendy Carol she agreed that the girls could come around
So Dorothy and Mary went to play and Winnie went to sit in the garden with a pigs ear.
I ate beans on toast and watched the 1943 propaganda movie Above Suspicion with Fred Mac Murray and Joan Crawford 
Night shifts constrict your world
I have a month of night shifts to go