Thank you for all your love and support after yesterday’s post. I’ve reread it, and I’ve laid all my burdens out. I’ve laid the shame so that the world can see. Yet it taught me something. As much as I feel alone sometimes, I’m not. I guess its not so normal to put some of your innermost struggles for all to see. This morning a friend text me to ask how my spirit was. I’ve never felt so seen. She got it. My spirit needs living water.
I was reminded that He loves me. Because He loves me. He desires His best for me. I’m just not a patient child. I want that candy now. I want that reward now. Faithful in small things leads to more. More of what I want. Lord, it all comes down to The Serenity Prayer. It all comes down to You. I’m not in control. The world says I am. You say no ma’am. Life teaches me how wrong the world is.
My road to healing is going to take time. I can’t make it happen overnight. I come back to the hymn of trust and obey. The first is hard. The latter is more of a struggle. I don’t know why, but honestly I don’t have the words to explain it.
So right now my joy for today is that I’m here to write. I’m here to continue the work that He has for me. And I’m grateful for people who give me the desire to go on this journey.
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