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  The path to Lenny Hill August has been a bad month for me. I believe I am getting better now but in the background to this blog I have been suffering with some kind of virus. Though my sleep has hardly been disturbed, every morning has been like starting up an old car. Spluttering and coughing. Handkerchiefs and tissues at the ready. And this pattern has kind of washed me out. By the way, lateral flow tests taken twice demonstrate it's not COVID. I haven't felt like undertaking garden chores and the amount of walking I have done has been negligible compared with most Augusts. Consequently, my stamina seems much reduced. To walk miles you must keep walking week in and week out. Use it or lose it - I am very aware of that particular piece of wisdom. Anyway, today I thought I would test myself out with a circuit I have plodded many times before in the last thirty five years. This time I remembered to take some garden clippers and a saw. I needed the latter to tackle a small ...

 I never thought God would change me. After reading your recent comments, I realized that the change has been so subtle, I’ve not recognized it. I’m kind of glad I didn’t know until now. I would have fought Him. I just didn’t know He was working. And that’s the biggest blessing. I always wonder if I will run out of things to say, it hasn’t happened yet. I’m grateful. I’m grateful He still finds me a viable vessel.  You gave me the best morale boost telling me I’d be missed if I stopped writing and sharing with you publicly. I used to want to hide. Now, I see that hiding left me to loneliness and despair. I think I continue because the community here affirms my talent, my worth, my humanity.  There is a lot I don’t know. I just feel I will continue as long as I’m meant to do it. I’m the richest poor person because you love me so well. I never knew people could and would love a person like me. So flawed. A person who needs help daily. And yet through you, He provides....