Even as the Blue Jays lost last night, they won. They won my heart. They won the real prize. And in life, my life even as I struggle with the what ifs, the pain, the almost, what could’ve been, God appears. God says your reward is not hardware. Your reward is your response. Even when I think I lose I win. Even as I struggle with the mounting disappointment of each new question, I’m reminded that I’m being tested. And I’m tired of being tested. But the test has a point. A purpose. Whom do I serve? God or my own pain? In losses I learn what a win never does. Why does the loss always teach me more? Why is it more valuable? I will tell you every team for the most part has been the loser, yet the victor for me.
Pain teaches me more that joy ever has. Because in pain, I learn what joy really is. Joy is not a victory. Sure it’s the desired outcome, but sometimes outcomes don’t teach us clarity and a peace that passes our need to know. Jesus is not giving me what I want. He is giving me what I need. Even if what I need is very unpleasant or unpalatable right now.
Merci Toronto for giving me joy and hope. Even in losing, you are my winner
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