Lord,
Sometimes it’s so hard. To be happy for others. To cheer them on. It feels like years of waiting. Help me find joy in the waiting. Help me be happy for others. I don’t know what to ask anymore. I know that as much as I can hope life were different. It isn’t. Help me accept my reality. Help me be joyful. Because I’m not. It’s exhausting. Letting you see this. Letting you see there is nothing perfect in me. There is nothing easy. Not everything shimmers in gold every day. Letting it all out before it eats at me. If this is too depressing, skip this post. Some days are just rougher than others. Some days I try to put a smile on my face. It’s a choice made even if it is not felt.
So Lord, remove the bitterness from my soul. I have too many blessings. Remind me that no tear, no disappointment is ever wasted. I only pray that what you have for me is so beyond the wildest dreams I’ve ever had.
Waiting in
The valley
Is not
A pleasant place
But if
That is
Where I’m
To remain
Right now
Love me
Well enough
That I
Lack for
No thing
Love me
Even if
I find
It hard
To love
Others
Or myself
Going back
To saying
I love me
In the bathroom mirror
Repeat after me
I love self
Enough
To not settle
For second best
Crumbs
Because
I was to impatient
To trust
The Creator
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